7:41 pm
only 7:41 pm
4 hours 19 mins to go
before ending this day
and it is a Thursday
eve of the weekend for Brooklynites
for New Yorkers
for the free spirits
for people with an attitude
towards their jobs
I was surprised by how early it is
how much free time on my hand
4 hours 19 minutes
I could meet new folks in the neighborhood bar in the next hour
have fun and irrelevant conversations
get drunk real fast in the following hour
stop pretending to like the conversations in the third hour
fall in love in the last hour
decide nothing else matters in the next 19 minutes
better yet
I can keep going
as the night blends into ungodly hours
of the next day
that I don’t think I’ll ever see
instead of reading the same chapter of the same book
over and over again
in the apartment
where I could hear myself breathing
What a beautiful night
I have so much free time on my hand
I do not have to be alone
So I step outside
sound of traffic
loud chattering
beer glasses shattering
crowding my thoughts
wasted crowds
having fun
all dressed up for nothing
And here I am
standing there
like a scarecrow
in retreat
The beauty of the night
lies in the fact
that there are endless possibilities
to not feel alone
and these possibilities
messed up my mind